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I haven't wrote here since december of 06.  thats a long time :) cause i know all you all are dying to know what goes on in my life.  yeah, just kidding.  really its been pretty boring.  got back with a certain ex for a bit, and that was a train wreck from the begining.  quite awful actually.  but i got to live to learn you know?  so ive really just left that part of my past in the past.  i got that fateful dui that EVERYONE told me i would get sooner or later.  too many nights of drivin drunk to please me.  they finally caught up to me.  so honestly, it really helped.  i will NEVER drink and drive again.  that is too much drama to go through again.  had to take that 72hr class too.  that was actually quite interesting. saw a 25lb liver...gross.  so now, i bike and walk a lot to get to places.  im allowed to drive to work and thats about it.  i mite hop over to taco bell once in a while, but thats few and far between. 

im livin the single life right now.  and i love it.  i can talk to guys, and not feel that pressure of a relationship.  its so nice.  im goin to shady bowl tonight.  ive never been.  im purty excited bout that.  kinda lame when there's nothin to do in a small town cept go watch people drive in a circle...but my friends race, so its a lot better! 

so till next time(dont know when that will be)later yall!

wow. been forever in this thing.  so things are just ok.  been a little depressed lately.  you'll have that hanging out in a  bar day in and day out.  ive got so much drama and confusion goin on as well in my life as far as my love life and my mom.  love life has been a roller coaster from hell and back.  i allow myself to put thru crap even when im not with this certain someone.  i can't let him push me around anymore.  it took a very good friend to come down hard on me about him for me to realize that i really do need to get away cause all he's doing is hurting me and i dont need that.  this is me lettin go of that.  and realizing i can do better.  there's other stuff goin on in that area of my life that i just need to let go to God and let him take care of it. 

now as far as my mom...as most of you know she is a major control freak!  they found out i do go to the bar, which absolutely devasted my mom but my dad just let it roll of his back.  thats how he is.  but mom on the other hand called me everything under the sun that night.  well, ever since then its been a rocky road.  she puts her two cents in and expects me to go with whatever she says.  well, thats not happening.  i am just as stubborn if not more than she is and i dont need that either.  i am 24, living on my own for over a year now, i think i know how to live my life and manage to stay alive(at least half).  so i think im ok. 

other than that sort of drama, nothin really goin on in my life. so hope you all enjoyed my little venting there. 

women of faith rocked this weekend.  my heart needed that.  i officially and finally let go of past hurts.  that felt absolutely wonderful. 

i was a little under the weather on saturday...maybe food poisoning, not sure, but it sucked big time.  im much better now and ready to go for a good run. 

isn't it weird how God allows you to see certain people only when you are ready?  well, after this amazing weekend, and a great sunday night worship service at church, todd and chris and i (my brothers) all went out to eat at frischs.  guess who happened to be there?  mr. dan wright =)  i started a relationship with him two seconds after matt, and it wasn't the right time, but we parted ways because of that, and i changed my number (not because of him) and told each other maybe when we are both ready.  maybe this is God's way of bringin him back into my life when im ready?   or maybe ive got high hopes....he's such a sweetheart!  ok, so im not gonna throw myself any direction, but i really would like for that to work out somehow. 

wow its been over a month...im such a slacker.  so im realizing that my heart isn't even ready to be put out there for someone to grab.  its like i still got a hold on certain things...or they have a hold on me.  id like to thank a certain special guy who is slowly helping me get out of that.  you are truly a friend to me, more than you know. 

spiritually ive been better.  im stuck in this desert place that brings me down everyday.  sometimes i wonder how i will ever manage to get out.  but then i remember i cannot do anything by myself, but with God all things are possible.  if i just remember that, everything seem so much clearer.  im goin to the women of faith conference this weekend, which i am looking forward to.  i hope it will be a chance of renewel of my faith, and an awakening of my spirit.  please pray for me.